have mercy on me

I would say I am not constantly living in sin, but I confess that I sin everyday.

For I know my transgressions, and my sin is always before me. Against you, you only, have I sinned and done what is evil in your sight, so that you are proved right when you speak and justified when you judge.
Psalm 51:3-4

Whether it’s a wicked thought or an ungodly word spoken to/ said about someone or a sinful act committed, sin is sin!

I recount it all and am disappointed, heartbroken, disgusted & angered by my conduct, the lack of love I show God & how much I disrespect Him.

All I can do is claim the blood of Christ & ask Him to cleanse me again & again, as many times as it takes.

Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean; wash me, and I will be whiter than snow. Let me hear joy and gladness; let the bones you have crushed rejoice. Hide your face from my sins and blot out all my iniquity.
Psalm 51:7-9

Sometimes, I get scared that one day, God will have enough of my sins and that’ll be it. Salvation gone!

Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me. Do not cast me from your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me.
Psalm 51:10-11

Of course, it’s not healthy to think that way. It’s not even true in terms of Scriptures. I just humbly ask the Lord to restore me everytime.

Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.
Psalm 51:12

Forgive me Lord, no matter how many times I screw up, because I’m afraid I’ll keep screwing up till the very end.

In Jesus Name!

Thank Sri :)Thank Sri 🙂

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